Music

I absolutely LOVE MUSIC!!!!!!! It speaks to me in ways I cannot even begin to articulate. Today I was driving and listening to Jack Johnson. This song spoke volumes to me.

NO OTHER WAY

When your mind is a mess so is mine I can't sleep
Because it hurts when I think when my thoughts aren't at peace
With the plans that we make and the chances we take
They're not yours they're not mine
There are waves that can break
All the words that we said and the words that we mean
And the words can fall short, can't see the unseen
Because the world is awake so for somebody's sake
Woman, please get some sleep

Sleep and know that if I knew all of the answers
I would not hold them from you
Know all of the things that I know
Because we told each other there is no other way

Too much silence can be misleading
We don't really need to find reason
Because out the same door that it came well it's leaving
It's leaving
Leaving like day that's done and part of a season
resolve is just a concept that's as dead as the leaves
When we wake we would find, our minds would be free
To go to sleep

Sleep and know that if I knew all of the answers
I would not hold them form you
Know all of the things that I know
Because we told each other there is no other way


Karson goes in for kidney testing on Monday and I am not at peace!! Please pray for us.

Girls Night

Kinley is staying at her Aunt Tammy's house for a few days so I've had a chance to spend some one on one time with Karson. Last night we went to get a pedicure. We had so much fun. It was such a joy to watch her, picking out her color, soaking her feet, enjoying the massage chair. These are the types of things that I love about her getting older.

Sometimes I feel that I no longer have anything to offer the public. I feel my mind has become a giant bowl of mush. I can't think of anything other than one to eight year old children. I have forgotten what it was like to sleep past noon, have no responsibility, drive a car with only two seats, stay up all night reading a good book. Don't get me wrong, being a mother is the greatest thing I have ever done, but I do need to continue to have some ME time.

My Day

So we are back from vacation. Lots to write just not a lot of time today. I'm up to my eyeballs in laundry and the kids decided to get out every toy we own. Oh and I came around the corner to find the baby hanging out in the fridge. I guess one of the girls opened it for him (no one will fess up). I got some great pics from our trip and will post them later. Right now I have to get back to the Chaos.

Anniversary

We are on vacation and having a great time. Today is our nine year anniversary. Wow, wow everybody!!!! After the kids crashed last night we stayed up way to late sitting on the couch talking and just being. As much as we drive each other nuts, I am so glad he is mine. Love you Matt.

Denial

Nope it's not a river in Egypt! So I gave my best friend Hannah access to my blog. I don't really have a good explanation as to why it took so long to do. Maybe because she is a lot like my husband in the way she razzes me, and I thought she would think it was way to cheesy. (which i admit it totally is) Maybe because it makes me feel quite vulnerable. I don't know. So the possibility of her (Hannah) moving seems to be not so much a possibility anymore. I have to say, as excited as I am for the opportunity this is for her family, I am selfishly dreading the news of "We got the Job". Getting teary so I will get back to that later.

So we are going on a much needed vacation on Monday. Trying to get back to our Hillbilly roots we are going to Branson. Matt even said he wanted to have one of those old time saloon pictures done. You know the ones I'm talking about, tin, black and white, great costumes. I am really looking forward to this little trip. Most of all the kids are so excited. This really is a trip for them.

irritated

come on, it is almost not even worth leaving my house alone anymore!!!! i come home to an absolute tornado like mess. i mean would it kill you to actually WATCH the kids? the house smells like a stink bomb and the kids have even managed to get out their winter coats from storage(which they know not to do). off to clean - AGAIN - more later. sidenote-swimsuit shopping SUCKS!

Graduation

Our niece Mackenzie graduated from high school a couple a weeks ago. It was on a Sunday evening and they live a few hours away so I stayed home with the baby and Matt took the older three kids. I took a picture of the girls before they left and I just haven't had the time to post it. Little girls are so funny when they get dressed up. I love that they know how beautiful they are!!!

Ice Cream

Maverick had a great first birthday. He had his first ice cream cone and thoroughly enjoyed it. I cannot believe he is one!!! Time really is going by too fast. Makes me sad.

His Year

Tomorrow is Maverick's first birthday. This time last year I was preparing to have him by c-section. Is it really possible that it has been a year? His first year of life has been absolutely amazing. He is a wonderful baby who is full of his own little personality. He makes me laugh everyday, a sure "maverick". I am so thankful for this little boy.

You are beginning to walk and your favorite word is "Da-da". You enjoy unrolling the toilet paper in the bathroom and you squeal when you know you've been caught. You have really started getting into your baby food, which makes me very happy!! So far you like everything I've given you. You are definitely my busiest baby, on the go all day then crashing for a power nap or bedtime. Happy Birthday Baby Boy!!!!

Happy Birthday Matt

I love you so very much!!!! Hope you have a great day!!