Let's Talk

So, time has come for the talk. We (as in me and Matt) had a sit down this evening. It is time for a BREAKTHROUGH!!!!!!!!!! We have struggled way too long!!! I can only hope that Matt is seeing things my way.

Getting ready for the showdown.

So, it has been quite a while since my last post. Yes there are reasons way to long to explain. Maybe at a future time I can fill you in. A brief synopsis, last year at this time, marriage in the toilet, me in the toilet, pretty much shit, you get the picture. Matt and I have been through so many trials in our short marriage and I often wonder when the breakthrough will happen. It has to at some point, right? As of today, the first of December, I am struggling to breathe, taking every minute as it's own. The pressure that has come upon my family is suffocating. I know that God will not give me more than I can handle but if I am being honest, I wonder if he truly knows my breaking point, the insane thoughts that cross my mind. My immediate family, IE (dad, and fucked up sister) have brought me more pain than I ever knew possible. I continue to grieve and wonder if it will end.


My children continue to thrive amidst their mothers sadness. They are amazing! They are why I will fight to be better, to do better!!!!!!!

politics really?

It is sooooo frustrating to make up your mind when you are watching the two evils.. I do not line up with repub or dem. Is that so wrong? I don't think so.

Wow

Time does really fly? The last six months have been amazing. Highs, lows, deal breakers, jobless, unhappy, happy, you know-life as I KNOW IT. I have had a blast getting to know my husband all over again. I can't promise but I will try my BEST to keep the blog updated.

Time Away

It is crazy how much time has passed since i last blogged. I have to say that taking a break was needed. I know that I needed some time to reflect and get some help with my life. So now, I am better if you will and ready to start writing again. So much has happened-so much is happening right now. I hope to capture it and enjoy every moment.